Twilight is upon me ...

HOwdy

2004-04-24T20:05:01Z

Hmm, havent updated in a while, but im gonna be werking on my journal today so expect great things to come bye ^_^

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2003-11-19T19:12:48Z

tired

2003-10-28T08:09:46Z

tired

phew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2003-09-13T11:52:33Z

Man im tired...

oh my god

2003-09-02T12:42:07Z

jamie is so cool sometimes that it just makes me crazy.

i love that she did my dishes and made me dinner.

shes the best.

i wanna marry her

too bad shes gonna marry leo dicaprio

god, she is so AWESOME.

Happy Birthday To me....

2003-08-22T04:48:17Z

So its my birthday...
eye have a phunny feeling on my birthday, every year since i hit about 12. Its a tough day for my mom. seeing as she is supposed to celebrate my birth, but my brothers death? Eye kno its hard on her, so even tho i was sad and depressed all day, i smiled for her. Eye realized today that i am a constent remider to her of Greg. thats gotta be harsh. But she knows i love her.
Eye dont expect eye will be doing anything spectacular tonight. To be honest eye dont feel much like celebrating. It didnt feel like a birthday to me. Eye woke up... took a shower, went to werk... cleaned my bar up real nice, and came home. everybody seemed happy it was my birthday. good for them. nobody noticed eye wasnt happy. but not a big thing. just a nother day on planet earth i suppose........

Kiling my concience,trying to be rid of this nonsense, lying to me
you must feel i'm totally unconcious,can't even breathe, without
seeing you constant-ly in my face me like this concieted monster,
fallen from grace, you'd like me to give you the honour, and save
you a place, in my heart like you're grandma, but that aint the
case, i aint even callin you momma,cuz i'm replaced, see you've
created a monster
so i'm sorry, you can even come and cry on me, what goes around
comes around, no need to worry, dont think i'm lonely, i was
before you disowned me,so hold me, show me, the love that you owe
me, you owe me, yet you decided to throw me, out the door, i guess
thats just why you told me, to trust two, me and myself only, and
not you, bitch i know that you're phony, you run to, the family so
you could show me, up to, be a beast but i'm coping, so i'll tell
you, what to do here i'm holding, a pistol, crystal,clear its you
or me.

to kill a concience................................................
..............................................is to birth a monster

NO NO NO

2003-08-16T15:30:24Z

no no no, i am no longer in the straight vodka buisness. Happy birthday bob, Hope everyone got home allright. NARS>>>>>How embarrasing, im glad u had phun tho, errrg to much puke not enough sleep. Seeyall later...

Man that Goalie was really fucking pissed off about something!!!!!!!!! ^_^

2003-08-15T08:01:51Z

Good Evening...
eYe Saw Freddy Vs. Jason tonight, with the fellas and CO. Being the first to see it was pretty kewl. it Wasn't that predictable, had a couple of scary parts, and the storyline RULED!!!! Overall eYe give it a 10 out of 10. Freddy vs Jason did justice to both characters EVEN THO WE KNOW WHO GOT THE LAST HIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
eYe think im gonna werk on my vampire story.... i gotta push myself to do good on it, eYe have a feeling betty wasnt kidding when he said he was gonna make me cry. Here is a little peace for u people
haha you cant read it!!!!!!!
here in the immortal werds of christopher carabba
She fixes her lips, they
always look perfect
Never a smudge line,
Never too, much
I try on my blue shirt
She told me she liked it
Once...
She wonders what ill wear
She knows just what shell wear
She allways wears blue
So Sneakers of flip Flops?
Im starting to Panic
"Wait, Wait"...
Remeber She asked You
Remeber to Breath
And Everything, will Be
Ok

Later Days ^_^

dum di dum di dum di dum dum dum!!

2003-08-12T19:44:18Z

Wow... so i slept for like 25 hours then another 18 last night, sorry if i was a bore last night guys. Werk is today, i watched cocktail so i am looking foward to werking the bar tonight. i just wish more people would go inside. here is something i put together
If I were the former me, I'd be in love by now,
twice over, actually
Leslie, then Stephanie

I should be in love by now, or at least depressed and introverted
but Im not

Hmmm, that's odd, I thought I knew me better
but then again, Im not the former me.

I do love her, I do, (without the CAPITOL L)
she had me backed in a corner,
pegged

She asked me to read her my words
and it lit her world
and it was on
and it was good
and it can be good

but Im not "in" love
and Im not depressed

will it pan out?
Im not obsessed
not even oppressed

These past few days,
I believe I passed a test

and I love and I care
caught unaware

Im not liking the ryming skeeeeeeeem its not me.

And here was a wishfull thinking kinda poem
Just a kiss would set my sails again
a soft gentle sip would have them unfurled
to the winds
on the open seas

I had forgotten how soft her voice could be
unaware how happy she'd be
to hear from me

I can feel her again, soft and slim
wrapped around my arm, my serpent entwined again

a voice from the not so forgotten past
how easily she wooed me again

unbeknownst to her
as I called

bored

missing the touch
of the last girl to say "I love you"

missing each other
always settling our minds
escaping the daily drama
knowing those we are with
cannot touch us
knowing
we cannot be together
forever

but long enough for us to remember
how we settle each others spirits
for a moment

escaping

feeling untouchable

to have her wrapped around me
clinging for the hours that she can,
anj,

soft and succulent
settling my spirit
to have a tender woman by my side again
soon...

YAY!!!!!!!

2003-08-09T20:03:35Z

Sorry havent updated, to u three people who read my pathetic little journal. Heres the rundown, Had the Tasp Test this morning, i think i owned its ass. Went to the Mall and ordered a poster for BObalOBaDINgdOng's birthday. Aug 13. Bought Richard a Bob Marley Poster for his B-day... SOrry it was late. Pre orderd Stargate SG-1 for adam's birthday... late too sorry, and Obtained an AwESome Jim MORRISON (MR. MOJO RISIN) poster for my self. IM currently working on my buddy Bobby's B-day present hehe he will like the extent i am going out on.......... Just had like 3 double expressos THANK YOU SPANKY's..... now im going swimming. GONNA POST WRITINGS TONIGHT so look for em/..... Seeya later guys ^_^

whaaaaaaaaaa....whaaaaaaaaaaaa.... WHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

2003-08-07T06:39:51Z

TOday,,,,,, What a day, i woke up happy again, thats 2 days in a row. I dont know whats wrong with me? anybody?
That cleared up at work when i was thinking bout a dashboard song,,, not gonna tell ya which one HAHAHAHA!!!!! now im in my comfortable state of mind dark and weary ^_^. I THINK IM GONNA GO TO THE BEACH TOMORROW. HAVENT HEARD FROM MY friends in a while, sept at werk.... EYE GOTS A HEADACHE SO GONNA SPLIT>>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>><<<<<<<<<

try a little tenderness...

2003-08-06T05:43:02Z

buddha once said

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned."

jim morrison once said

"There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors."

john lennon once said

"Life is what happens to you when your busy making other plans."

frank sinatra once said

"I feel sorry for people who don't drink. When they wake up in the morning, that's as good as they're going to feel all day."

the only thing that i could contribute to the greats, is the answer to a ancient riddle...........Knock Knock.....

Come in
^_^

Hookers don't like to cuddle...

2003-08-05T08:02:30Z

i havent left the house for 2 days strait... im putting good use to my days off... written lots for betty.... u will injoy i promise, played guitar, video games, and sleptd... i think im gonna create a very unhealthy habit of staying indoors for my days off. eye dont like sunlight,, the only sunlight is see on my normal days is to and fro work..... ooooo crap gotta go

"So certain are you. Always with you it cannot be done."

2003-08-03T07:54:21Z

Yay, i have a journal now, im planning a new look soon, just need some time. IM gonna post lots of misc. writings and feelings, and opinions, gotta run phor now,,,,,, smell ya later

why?

2003-08-02T11:09:38Z

i always ask myself why jamie is so damn nice to me